S O U L [this 1 took me 6 months to write..I dont know why..but it did:) BUT its finally done]

A flittering soul
free of the timeless perplexities of existence
all in truth except one... the puzzle
of the inner heart.
A pristine soul
surrounded by condemnations and corruption
from all circles. So a solid wall, not
of ice, but of fire-hot, burning; a perpetual
aching in the inner depths- is built, towering and
enduring as a protective barrier against
the destructive universe.
An angelic soul
warm, giving, smiles of sunshine
and eyes in a midnight sky-
blossoms, yearning for the fleeting-
a precise moment in time, when the heart
stands still, waiting for that moment, then it
comes, swift, spontaneous- a pounding
of drums, a touch, a breath, a quiver-
and the soul is lost.
The soul awakened,
innocent, yet not na?
all-knowing, yet completely
spellbound by the unknown-
a shimmering, eyes wide open
sweet succulent soul embraces-
the fires internal-tamed-by
passion and suddenly freed from
the entrapments of the spirit into
the universe of the heart.
A perfect soul.

No Greater Love Than Mine

By failing candlelight
The written word
Scribed upon this page
On Autumn eve
With quill and ink
From the poet's desk
Shall shake you from
The depths of marble tombs
Wake your sleeping heart
Upon this earth
Then trumpet and resound
What is my soul,
My breath, my pulse,
My reason to survive
"No greater love exists
than mine for you."
The voice, immortal
As the robin's song
Shall ring, reverberate,
Unto the wind
And whisper there
Through all eternity

Buried Treasure

So, tell me, has life taken you for granted,
have you found what you wanted,
or just simplicity and fusion,
hope you don't mind my confusion.
Have you found that buried treasure,
has life brought you pleasure,
or still looking for the quest,
forgive me, for I had to get it off my chest.
I heard, your road has taken many twisted turns,
must be, you tasted love so cold when it still burns.
Yeah, one of the reasons I gave up on your charm
to live and love, but be free from harm.
Sometimes I wonder why I am getting- the hang up calls,
you must know the reason I built those inside walls.
You're telling friends from me you were cursed,
because I had to live a life with dreams- dispersed.
Tomorrow I'll call and tell you, please don't cry,
for it is much easier to say goodbye...
Crystal tears and sword of love, still by my bed--
when our love died, my heart just- bled.

Only Memories

The scent of melting wax filled the air
as the candlelight grew dim
She lay there on her bed trying
not to think of him
Try as she may, she could not sleep
the many things they'd said
Kept coming to her sleepless mind
and now she felt so dead
The tears were rolling down her cheeks
as thoughts about the plans
They had made together
are now out of both their hands
Just as the flame was dying out
her hopes were growing dim
How could she bear it day to day
and never be with him
Oh, the mem'ries in her heart
forever she would keep...
Then the candle gave no more light...
then ah...at last, sweet sleep

Paradox of Life

True love, like tree branches,
Brings fruits in its due season.
Lofty trees of barren leaves
Is love that has nothing to give.
Secret love, like hidden treasures,
Has worth- when it's ripe.
A thousand words of empty promises
Is hope that has nothing to yield.
Shattered dream, like broken hearts,
Takes away the joy of life.
Every love that a liar gives
Is nothing but a gate of grief.
A restless heart, like raging winds,
Robs the mind of all its peace.
Silent pain of a lonely soul
Is worse than worries of hopeful lovers.

R e u n i t e d

With devoted concentration, you gaze at me from across the room
Your eyes become one with mine, I am unable to move
Your hypnotic stare and heartfelt passion forced into my mind
Taking me back as if our love had been frozen in time
Memories invade my soul, like only yesterday
You were holding me in your arms -
You promised it would always be this way
Somehow I escape to turn the other direction
Inside I'm longing for your sweet, tender affection
But now I know the truth behind those lying eyes
If you only could realize the pain I try to hide
Cuts so deep, they cannot be healed
A space in my heart that will never be filled
As you try desperately to put me under your spell
I resist - I know too much, I have been there
I hear you speak those three little words
As all love and hate suddenly converge
Confusion sets in as the time ticks on
I want you back, I want you gone
I can't take it anymore, I need to cry
Silence fills the room as all emotions slowly die

FORGOTTEN

THOSE EYES, SO GREY...
THAT SMILE, SO COLD...
THOSE LIPS THAT HOLD...
STORIES UNTOLD...
SHE TRYS TO HIDE THE HURT...
THAT LINGERS, STILL, INSIDE...
SHE MASKS IT WITH A SMILE...
IN ORDER TO GET BY...
HER HAIR, SO FINE...
A GOLDEN SHADE...
LIKE SUN IN THE MORNING...
THAT NEVER FADES...
HER FACE, SO SWEET...
HER VOICE IS TOO...
HER SECRETS...
SOME, I WISH I KNEW...
HER SKIN, SO SOFT...
SO LOVELY AND SWEET...
MOST WISH THAT...
THEY COULD MEET...
ONLY ONE THING THAT BOTHERS ME...
IS SOMETHING ONLY I CAN SEE...
SHE MISSES SOMETHING ...
SOMETHING SHE USED TO BE...
AS I LOOK INTO THIS MIRROR...
I FIND THAT SHE...
IS ME...

Left All Alone

All alone in the shadows

In the silent lonely corner

I stare up at the stars in the dark night

Tears stream down my face

Knowing that i was all a lie

Youve left me all alone for a reason not known

How can one pretend and live a lie for so long

You simply walked away and left

You didn't care to wipe the tears

Nor care to heal the pain

Ive been left all alone

With a shattered soul

And a broken heart

Time has passed since youve left

But the pain just wont go away

In time youve changed in so many ways

I wish you would the way you were

So things would be the way they were

I wish you were here to hold me tight

And tell me it will all be alright

So that I wouldnt be left all alone

My hopes and dreams are a part of the past

For al theres left to do..

Is to wish upon a star

and to dream of the day

that you just might care

to mend my sould and easy my heart

For then it wlil be..

Just you and me.

Fly..[written for my best friend Rich]

I have seen the world through bloodshot eyes

and fallen down so many times;

kept my distance far from all who cared-

being hurt again, my biggest fear.

I have played among the flowers

and danced along the clouds...

So "high" and falling farther,

..farther from myself.

The ground's a smiling friend,

when clearly you can't see;

I almost hit rock-bottom..

But a stranger was waiting to catch me.

He made me smile again

and he opened up my eyes;

Asking nothing in return,

he taught me how to fly.

I just want to tell you "thank you",

and ill alwas be here for you;

Say my name and ill come running,

thats all you'd have to do.

Ill take away a sky thats grey

and paint it all wiht blue;

ill be your rainbow after rain..

id do anything for you.

So, if you ever feel like you will fall

ill be here to catch you in my arms;

If youre ever in any danger-

i want to shelter you from harm.

If tears should ever fall

down your strong and handsome face

I want to be the one to catch them and put them in thier place.

id do anything to see you smile

id give it endless tries;

i was born without wings but because of you

I know know how to fly.

Always & Forever

Although I dont show it

and ill always deny it

inside i know the way i feel

i know i still love you

from the 1st time i lost you

till the moment we shared our first kiss

the kiss i thought you would never give

my feelings for you came true

that night we were together, from dusk till dawn

i thought we would stay that way forever

i was in love.

in love with you

from the day we shared our first kiss

to the day when everything ended

you were the meaning of my life.

from then until now, and now until forever

I hope you know-youre the love of my life

and have the key to my heart.

ill keep denying, and ill keep kiding my love

but inside my heart my love for you will last-

forever..

forever & always

A Little of Your Time

I feel im being punished
for feelings that i own,
things ive never felt before
at a dept ive never known.

Id love to have you here now
Id love to rant and rave
and demand from you the answers
to the questions my heart craves.

Becuase you, youre not so innocent-
as i pick upon my brain
i'm not the only heart involved
just the one that feels the pain.

The pain of feeling all alone,
just me and words ive shared,
all alone just wondering
if you even really care.

Has the way i feel about you
put a burden on your days?
do you wish i idnt care for you
do you wish i'd go away?

You could have spoken up
yes, you could have let me know.
You should have asked..I go away
a long long time ago.

You should have said it firmly
right from the very start-
or is it that you couldnt
because i'm in your heart?

What is it that i mean to you
if anything at all,
what is it that you cannot say,
why is it that you stall?

it would only take a moment,
a fraction of your day,
or are you scared of what you feel,
scared of what to say.

You know id never hurt you,
so what can you not see;
I'm more hurt you wont say a word
than by what may never be.

YOU

Sweaty heat sticking;
the air didnt move that night.
We were close,
closer that we usually got.
You looked at my hand
and you remembered it;
I had told you two years priod,
this was our true beginning-
our fire had begun to burn again.

Distant stars shimmered;
the sky was clear that night.
We were together,
more so then we had ever been.
You looked into my eyes and you kissed me,
more passionatley than you had two years prior.
This was our happiness-
the flames roared and nother else mattered.

Icy cold shivering;
the wind was biting that night.
We were screaming,
louder than we ever had.
I wouldnt even look at you
and you broke my heart,
exactly how you had two years prior.
This was our final battle,
smoke rose from the embers of what had been.

Piece of You

The wind whispered your name
And i too cried out for you
Knowing we would never be the same
My heart..jaded broken in two

Without heed, storm clouds rolled in
Assaulting the sky, besieging my soul
Where did the end begin?
Slowly the darkness takes control

You were my shelter, but now my storm
Amidst the thunder and pounding rain
Forever in love, your promise kept me warm
Then you left me crimson stained

But tomorrow when the storm has passed
And the beauty of life's light shines through
I know there will be a love to last
Just know my heart holds a piece of you.

If I Could Read His Mind

If only I could read his mind,
just for one day,
then i could find out how he really feels,
and everything hes been meaning to say.

I feel as though I dont' know the truth,
like something is going wrong.
I just dont know what to do anymore,
Ive love him for so long.

I wonder what he thinks about when he looks at me,
what he likes, what he hates, and what he wants to be.
I want to know the truth and i want to know it all,
i just want it to be fixed so it doesnt break and fall.

Just imagining what id be able to find..
..if only i could read his mind.